It just a FAITH!!!

I'm falling in love again..

Is him.. He never let go wit me...

Although I hurt him so much.. He still choose wanna chase me back..

Am I really a good gal fren??

i feel I'm bad i just know how to hanging him dun let him go n dun accept him..

Is just coz I hurt him too deep ard...

He hurt I also hurt.. 

Scare to hurt him 3rd times...

Last week finally I make decision ard..

I wanna together back wit him..

BUT... 

Suddenly everything change

If i dont call him he also wont call me..

After finish night shift I direct go find him just feel wanna meet him n hug him

but when i meet him I feel i just a stupid gal..

I make so many busybody thing..

Can just feel that he dunwan meet me only.

Last week finally my offday reach finish work i go find him

then he is so sleepy after few hour he wake up ard

im so happy thought can go watch movie wit him

but he tell me he sick ard dunwan go out.

Really feel so hurt in that moment.

But just few minute he go play game again.

"U just tell me that u'r so sick wanna rest but just a munite u 'r playing game"

I was so angry then i run off the house..

He never chase me n just let me go..

In the moment, really cry...

Feel that he not love me ard..

at night time I still dunwan any face go find him and he say watch movie ard...

Feel so happy.. but when i reach his house..

He tell me he wan yam cha wit his fren..

He everyday also yam cha wit his fren cant just gv 1 day to me??

When he meet his fren wat sick also recover ard..

Really feel that I not important to him.

I'm not his LOVER anymore..

5 days ard.. I didn't receive any call, msg and meet him ard...

Feel so miss him..

but i know I'm just nothing for him now..

Y the faith was like that??

When I scare to hurt him and no courage to accept him.. 

He Dunwan let me go..

When I hv the courage to accept him,

He wont care me anymore ard...